“He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.”
Truth is – I have been confused about religion and the church. I was raised Roman Catholic, I never questioned my religion. Why would I? Other religions were pretty much frown upon back in my hometown of El Salvador. Protestant churches were not “normal” Forget about joining one, that was not going to happen.
In ’92 my life changed, we moved from Central America to my beloved Jersey, after the move church was no longer part of my agenda.
I attended mass a few times with my brother and sister. Very rare though, I was 10, they were young adults, hung out with friends their age and I pretty much stood home with my mom and it wasn’t a big deal really. This is when I became disconnected from the church.
My mother was agnostic, she believed in God but she didn’t like the catholic church,
let alone attending a mass, nope – that never happened. I certainly missed out on a lot. I forgot the prayers, I never again went to confession, If I attended a mass 10 times in 5 years it was a lot! Twenty years have past since the last time I felt a real connection to the church and mainly to God. My parents found their faith a few years ago within a Christian church, they are baptized and all. I am very happy for them, I love it that they have found a church community and most of all their faith.
I too want to find my faith, Is important to believe in a higher power. I am not saying it has to be the church I decide to attend. The point is, to find our faith in God and be the best
person we can be. I don’t like phony religious people and who does? I have bumped into quite a few fake “godly people” over past 20 yrs. Another reason why I wasn’t fond of religion for a while.
My faith in God remains, but I don’t understand why the church I grew up knowing has to have so many statues, repetitions, and luxuries. I don’t think that stuff is necessary and those luxuries should be feeding the poor and helping those in need, rather than sit there requiring maintenance, etc.
That’s just my point of view though, I don’t understand certain things about the catholic church. I am not saying you should convert to anything else. I am only writing on my behalf, and like I said, I have been confused about religion for a while.
I attended my parent’s church three times so far, I have to admit, I feel more comfortable there, I can feel God’s presence there and there is a sense of community and people seem to be very honest and non-judgemental, which is very important to me. I have learn that is not religion that saves us or changes our lives that is the relationship we have with God that makes all the difference. I feel good about this.
Things are beginning to turn around for the best for my boyfriend and I. I’ve been praying more often, the Lord knows I want to be a better version of me. I really want to. I think it’s time.